i was once the very diligent student.. after years later, I don't know what I am now
I can't accomplish anything, I feel so useless

i'm feeling very childish at the moment
i want to forget everything about her...
i feel betrayed by one of my best friends

this idea took three days to sink in..
i guess its because looking at her birthday photos and her telling me how happy everyone was, how its such a wonderful night
looking at the photos of her and her boyfriend..

apparently i have been "acting weird" tonight